My Sick Mouse

The show must go on. But it will have to go on tonight without my mouse and lollipop. We are all so sad to miss Megan's debut in The Nutcracker.

The day started out just fine. After a late night at dress rehearsal, Megan slept in until 8:30 or so and we did or normal lounging until it was time for school. I got her on the bus and dropped Katelyn off at my mom's so I could help with Megan's ornament party at school. While I was in her classroom, I didn't see anything out of the ordinary, although she did tell me her tummy hurt one time, but thought she was hungry so she helped herself to some rich candy snacks.

The red flag went up when she informed me that she felt like she was going to throw up while we were driving to pick up Katelyn. She made it to my mom's with no incident. I didn't know what to make of it....was it nerves....was it something she ate?? She didn't feel warm to touch, so I thought we'd just press forward. She actually fell asleep in the car ride from my mom's to our house...another red flag. I scooted her upstairs to lay down, hoping she would sleep some more, but no such luck. She still appeared ok, seemed to be herself and was indicating that she was nervous about the performance. This is normal butterflies, right??

By 4:30, there was no pukey, so I made the decision we were going to go for it. We got some snacks and all our stuff together and were on our way to Camas by 5:30. It was dark and rainy. We were just about to the Mill Plain exit on 205 south when she said she "had that feeling" again. So I quickly dumped out my little gift bag type handle bag that was next to me and handed it back to her (keep in mind it's pouring down rain, I'm in major traffic) and with about three seconds to spare, the much anticipated vomit arrives. By this time I'm trying to merge to catch the Mill Plain exit while trying to assure her everythings ok.

My mind is going a million miles a minute....first thought....YESSSSSSS, I've contained car vomit in a bag........second thought.......I'm so sad, we will miss her performance that she's looked forward to for three months...........third thought....would you PLEASE let me over to get to this exit.........my fourth thought is interrupted by Megan crying and informing me that the bottom of the bag just gave out and now the neatly contained vomit is all over her lap and booster seat and car seat and floor....The last comment she makes is the icing on the cake....."See, mom, I told you I didn't feel good and we shouldn't have gone tonight....Nice, a heaping layer of guilt to top it all off.

Yes, she had told me she didn't feel good, but how many times do you hear this, and how was I supposed to know the difference between major butterflies and true stomach illness. It's so hard being a mom and making these major decisions!

So, we made it home without me puking from the car smell and my wonderful husband took car cleaning duty and I took clean up the ballerina duty. She appeared to be better but didn't give up the bucket the whole night. Before we headed upstairs to bed, she took a drink of water, apparently too much water. We didn't make it up the stairs without filling the bucket again. She's asleep now with her bucket next to her.

What will tomorrow bring? We have performances at 2 and 7:30 and Sunday at 3. I'm praying with all my might that she's well enough to dance in at least one if not all. I guess keeping water and food down will be an important component to our decision.

Want to know the ironic thing? As I was helping in the dressing room for dress rehearsal last night, I was looking around at all these giggly excited girls (probably around 35 or so) I thought to myself, what are the odds that one of these girls gets sick this weekend? It didn't even dawn on me that it would be my little ballerina! Ah such is life!

I'm so glad I snapped a few pictures of her in the dressing room last night, just in case. I have full faith that she'll get to perform at least once, but here are some cute ones, just in case!

She wasn't excited about being a green lollipop, but I think the color looks great on her!

Megan mouse with neighbor and friend, Kate

and with her friend from pre school, Devan (who happened to be her lollipop partner)

Please, oh Please God, make her well!!!!